Food, Body, Happiness

I recently became aware of the fact that over the last few years I developed a negative representation about Food...more than just slight negative emotions but deep despise and worthless time consuming activity, regardless of its type/taste/esthetics/nutritional value...

Why did this happen? I would place the inception of such "hate" during highschool times, a "harsh" time for each teenager, Females mostly. If you have basic physiology/psychology knowledge you understand the basic normal transformations a teen's mind/body goes through... you would better prepared to face these changes, to understand them, to cope with them...

At that time i had none of these so, i developed feelings of anger, frustration against myself. Nothing looked/felt to be right...
From 50kg to 62kg (during my Bacalaureat preparations) with immense tension and emotional pressure from others' perceived expectations for academic success.

Now, being 25, I feel the same hate and lack of patience for myself. Food is still associated with 'useless action'...

But you know...all these stages in your life reach an ending point, when the conflict gets solved, whether through personal evolvement or a 3rd person's interference. You understand how important your body is, that food eventually is just the organic nutriment for your own functionality, for your health and your ability to fully express yourself.
You can use positive affirmations, read books, talk to people with similar experiences, practice auto-massage, take advice from your mom, from your boyfriend and so, eliminate this negative energy inside you which gets reflected in everything you do.

No matter how Tempting is to Perform in social contexts, in front of others, make a habit of constantly spending time with yourself, developing a warm relationship with your ego. As there are always 2 voices in your mind, one being your Self and the other one the Moral self, the SuperEgo, the voice of Must, of Socially Internalized Norms.

Cheers :)